Saturday 1 March 2014

My forever star~

Tadaima~
Uwaahh ! So much dust here. Its obviously that I don't update this blog for such a long time ne.

Hmm..actually, I want to write about my feeling. Not to the guy but what I'm feeling right now.
Ok, just now I'm search about Johnny's idol group for my upcoming fanfic. ( although the OLD one is not complete yet. ) I've to admit that there's A LOT that I still don't know about Johnny's. And because of that, I keep click on the 'next' button. Then I found a page that I'm not quite sure what are they against off, but it seems to have Arashi name. Somehow, the thought about 'debating' popped in my mind. So, I just click and read it. And as I thought, they're debating about JK-Pop thing. More to who is better, I guess. I read all the words in that page. Maybe, some of you think that, I'm a weird. Yeah, like reading a page that can make you pissed off. I admit that when I read it, I kinda annoyed with them but I'm okay with it. Why? Maybe because I change it to positive way? I don't say that K-pop is bad and J-pop is good. No. Not at all. I'm a neutral one. Why I say like that? Okay,

1st : I don't like to fight over a little thing. Maa.. maybe sometime I'm behave way too far from the line BUT, I'm only like that when I can't hold it anymore.

2nd : I want to be a good fangirl and want to fangirling in peace. I mean, everybody wants that, right?


Nowadays, K-pop is growing and spread widely in all over the world, even in my country. So, its a normal to have a FANS and ANTI-FANS or in a rude words haters. An intelligent fans will keep supporting their idols and also respected the other fandom, but an UN-intelligent fans will keep saying that their idols are the best in the world or so on. First of all, I'm not bashing or offend anyone. I'm just saying what I thought. Like I said earlier, I'm the neutral one. If you want to know, I'm a HUGE fan of Arashi. A boy band from Japan. And I can say that I'm proud of being their fan. For me, Arashi is different from other group that I know. They teach me a lot of things especially to treasure your important things. I believe that other fandom is also feel the same too. An idols were born to guide us do a good things. So, why we must bashing each other, if we can live in peace with respected to each other fandom. Isn't it nice. I can feel that the idol itself don't want that to happen too. Both sides have their own specialty and charisma, so we don't have to compare them. They're human being too.
It's not that I'm hate K-pop, I'm used to love them. And I'm still listen to it, although not very often as I listen to JE idol. I still know my first K-pop group that I follow, I sometime listen to K-pop song, and sometime watch their variety or drama. Also I make a good relationship with my friends who love K-pop and we used to switch what we got to each other. Isn't that nice.
I kinda sad sometime when I heard that even in Johnny's have anti-fans. And its obviously an anti from other group. Hey girls, our idols are in the same agency, remember. Why we have to fight over it. I can't stop thinking about what they want actually. Its kinda sad to me. But yeah, we can't force someone to like what we like, right. So, the better answer is stay quiet and don't get involve. I learn this thing in Johnny's fandom, but most of it in my precious Arashi fandom. The members in fandom is nice and I feel like we are actually family that live in different countries.

So, I want to ask again, why must we fight over something that have their own charm? Think about it again. For me, Arashi is my saver. They change me. :)


My forever star~

Tuesday 14 January 2014

Tadaima~

Ohayou minna-san..
Ohisashiburi da na..
I've disappear for a very long time I guess. Maa, ima I'm back again.
Are you miss me?? Hahaha..what a weird me. The way I talk like I'm an idol that have a fans. XD
But in reality, I'm just an ordinary girl that simply love with an idol. Also, like to talk with myself..I mean with my netbook, my blog. *krikk krikk*
Yaa..I think I'm getting weird now. Shoganai na~

Jitsuwa, 9 days a go was my father's death. How can I describe it. Ok, simply like it has been 1 year my father had gone to see the Creator. I don't know how I feel that time. It's not sad. It's like something missing. I still don't believe that my father have left me and my family  for 1 year. Nanka, sabishii..
I believe, if you see me in face to face, you will say that I'm a strong girl, but actually I'm not strong enough or should I make it clear, I'm not strong at all. Every night, I will remember all the memories that I had with him. Whether its a bad or good memories.
That's why I said, I have a lot of personality in me. Actually people often see Yuki and not me. Although they call me with various name, but the one who always do baka things, laugh out loud, talktative is Yuki not Lynn. I always wanted to introduce myself as Lynn, but I'm afraid if I reveal  myself as Lynn, nobody wants to friend with me. Its because I'm short-tempered person, and once I'm going mad, I don't know what I'm thinking and what I do. It makes me feel creepy now. I'm afraid that I'll lose my control. Luckily, there's a word that can make me calm.

I just want to say, I don't strong at all. How can you say someone is strong if at night she always sad if the memories come back. Maa, maybe I should post something about myself ne. I think its all for now. My eyes can't hold it anymore. Shoyasumi nasai minna~
Jaa~